A million pieces...

So many feelings and emotions are taking their toll on my body.  I am totally and utterly physically exhausted, and I'm finding some of my codependent behaviors that I've worked so hard to let go of, gradually creeping back into my life.  Things that I should not worry about or even think of cause me extreme anger and jealousy.  I want to cry; to scream; for people to understand that this is hard on me too.  I know God will never give me more than I can handle, but right now my plate seems pretty full.  And I'm afraid that with too much more, I'll shatter into a million pieces...